pho4cexa @pho4cexa@tiny.tilde.website
https://tilde.town/~pho4cexa
I make software.
AGPL3+ whenever I can.
I love my craft; I hate my industry.
37, cis, married, liberal, atheist, dad. he/him.
most common question asked in a maths classroom: "why do we have to do this why can't we just use a calculator"
blatant lie told to every pupil since like 1980: "you won't always have a calculator available"
actual truth: "calculators are devil objects, none of them work the same, you'll only really be acquainted with how exactly one of them works across your lifetime and when it comes time to use it again you'll have forgotten how it works anyway"
Wow. I've been head in the sand for the last few years and not following what's going on with Blender. Huge things are happening! https://www.blender.org/2-8/
The new realtime rendering and 2d drawing tools are amazing looking
this community college's sport team is "the pirates"
they host the local swap-meet every weekend in their parking lot
so today i browsed several rows of vendors of """name brand""" clothing, jewelry, and miscellaneous trinkets under flags boasting "home of the pirates"
go pirates :3
Software only becomes 'enterprise grade' if, when its behavior is described to an outsider flatly and precisely, the outsider assumes the description is some kind of elaborate joke.
I've been composing the next tweet in my head for years. It's quietly reshaped the way I think.
If I'm going to be primed for a hive-mind cyborg existence that's one thing, but I refuse to also be programmed by a corporation interested only in maximizing is own profit.
I may be a robot. But I'm no battery.
Doing work (volunteer or paid) that helps others, paid work that covers bills + a little more, & a respectful work environment may help work be sustainable & fulfilling.
uh bit late to this party but TIL Enigma ripped off the backing lyrics for "Return To Innocence" from these Taiwanese farmers https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oHGUr6HEow
current status: demotivated but simultaneously hopeful and excited about the future
wat. do i always have to be melancholy?
can't i ever just have a pure mood
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didn't (couldn't) stick to routine
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inadequate sleep
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no exercise
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fucked up and ruined everything
all according to plan
at least this time i'm not crying "but whyyyy"
wife and i talked days ago about alternative strict routine that is more compatible with kids' sleep schedule
i doubted it would stick, but i think i bailed/forgot before making a proper attempt
i'll give it another (a first) shot but probably too late already
still. that's no reason not to. i need it regardless
Do you miss web rings?
wine
dancing
laughing together caught in the rain
we're moving a bit too fast maybe
on the stoop
to my door
hearts beating a bit too fast maybe
could this be for real
but first
-i can't-
there's something you should know about me
could I?
you'll just turn away
but you insist
as the fabric slips away
i stammer, flushed with shame and hope
"so this... is me"
as your eyes adjust to the darkness you see it
my body is thousands of abandoned forgotten JIRA tickets
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i'm glad that i didn't just "get lazy" and stop waking up on time; i can mostly blame the lack of keeping to my brave new 8pm bedtime schedule on my 3yo who always keeps me up late
regardless, today has upended my perspective; i'm fairly well convinced now that this job and i are incompatible
wife and i talked tonight about taking another look at
- consulting
- teaching
- doing part-time master's degree
that felt slightly better?
i'm okay
i'm disappointed
i'll try to make the best of it
bosses gave me an action item that would help show i'm able to grow into my new title. startled to be reminded today that i
totally
fucking
forgot it đą
staggering around all day "how could i do this to myself?"
oh right.
- no on-schedule bedtime or morning workout in... 64 days (holy shit!?) also
- gtd attempt lays strewn around my desk
- my todo.org is a shambles
- where even is my watch?
- had a baby đ¤ˇ
i mean i'm terrible regardless but it's no wonder i'm doing a slow-mo epic faceplant rn
I was talking to a friend who was thinking about the internet we want to have, decentralized, less silos, a bit like the nineties where it was possible to have static pages, host email, write your own CGI scripts, and it was all step by step easy and possible if that was what you wanted. And we got talking about the kind of things we need to today to get this back. Do you have reading suggestions? Blogs to read? Projects? People to follow?
for real though i am seriously considering getting myself somehow back into consulting-style pay-by-the-project type work
'cuz i know stuff and write good code
agile is just too good at exposing my charade of competence
