jan Niko, Queer of Pastries @nihilazo@tiny.tilde.website

Decided merveilles isn't really for me. Wasn't sure it would be, turns out I don't think it was. I can't take myself as seriously as folks there seem to

mi tawa ma telo. mi sitelen lon ma ni. #tokipona

update: it isn't gov't funded but it is from a government endorsed place (childline). The government's own anti-drug thing (FRANK) is still full of misinfo but slightly less bad

10/10 drug knowledge right here (from a UK gov't funded website)

vim = emacs

update: no wifi (damn broadcom chipset) but wired networking seems to work. No idea what to do with this now.

It lives! #plan9 #9front
no idea if networking will work though

update: I can have some soy yoghurt with this to offset the spice and that makes it edible-ish. Good, because I have it again tomorrow. Learning experiences!

just cooked a burrito bowl, except it's not a burrito bowl. I'm calling this "the burrito bowl incident". It's barely edible because it's insanely overspices but I can maybe get a small hint of how it's meant to be under all that? It was a disaster and made a mess and I can't cook why am I even trying

got a meal plan because I thought it would make me less confused about food but not everything it needed was listed on the shopping list for it so now I'm even more confused????

Just finished recording a part for my mum and sister's band. There is nothing more stressful than recording two musicians who bicker with each other over how to play stuff, one of whom hasn't rehersed at all, hates recording, and would rather spend all her time sitting and watching tiktoks rather than caring at ALL about any of it.

source: ThorHighHeels

I was 100% spoiled about it going in as a result of video essays and podcasts loving to reference it as an example of a great movie, but there's a really good reason for that. It's a great movie.

that said, I think the ending - where Dr. Banks personally calls the chinese leader and uses her future sight gained from learning heptapod to convince the chinese general to stand down and take a more peaceful route - feels like a bit of an attempt to just get the movie done rather than provide a properly satisfying conclusion? I want to read the story it is based on now, to find out if that was cut short, because it feels that way

The main tension in the movie, unusually for a movie in which aliens arrive on earth, isn't human vs alien - it's human vs human. The driving force of the conflict in the plot is between the US millitary, Dr. Banks (who I like a lot as a character) and the chinese millitary.
The questions raised by the fact she chose to have a child when she knew the child would die from a rare cancer are interesting too.

Just watched Arrival, and damn, it really is one hell of a movie. I was initially drawn to it because I knew it featured a linguist as the main character, but it's so much more than just a movie about talking to aliens. It presents questions about the nature of time, foreign policy, the sapir-whorf hypothesis...Seriously. It's a very think-y movie.

the mind, body, spirit/self/soul division isn't something I believe to be metaphysically true, and it is used to justify a lot of altmed BS, but it is something I find useful as a framing device when I am dealing with unwanted thoughts/feelings. "This is not from me, this is from my body" or "this is not from me, this is from my mind" etc